3am

 It's 3am and I'm tired. I should probably be sleeping, but I can't. I am honestly just so fired up about the next few years of my life. I don't really know why, other than that I know God has his hand in all of it.
  I've been in a funk over the past 6 months or so because of a past relationship that lasted a few years. I thought she was "the one". I was very wrong, and that has been hard to take. I've had a hard time just getting out of bed and going to work. Most days since she hasn't been around, I just feel frozen in place, never moving forward or making any progress at all, and I have been so bitter towards God, thinking that he let all of this happen.
  Recently God has blessed me with an eternal perspective, which simply means that I can see past all the things in this world that will fade, and die, and look beyond to where God is waiting in his perfect majesty. So often I have paired my self-worth with the success of my relationships, and my career choices. Not anymore. I have to be responsible for myself and my own choices and that's it, and look to God in everything. I'm pretty stoked to start moving forward. God is good.

3am. Work tomorrow is going to suck.