"Life sucks but not really"

Man, why is stuff so hard.

But seriously. Life, living on your own, trying to find work, figuring out where you're going to live, getting your car on the road, seeking God, being honest, keeping your morals at a good place, managing time, finding a church, remembering things while all this is going on.. It's all just harder than they tell you.

I expected things to be difficult living on my own but I didn't expect things to be this annoying and frustrating. I didn't expect to come across so many ignorant and difficult people. Not because I don't think they exist, but because just that, I didn't think about it. I am capable of this. But will I lose myself in the process?

Those who know me well know what I am going through right now and know that it is not an easy situation. But I am moving forward with the only concrete information I have being that God will use me and mold me through my experiences. Everything and everyone else in my life is too unstable to rely on and God is the only thing that isn't changing or screwing me over somehow.

Maybe that's why God allows us to have troubles, so we will look to him and only him for however brief a time when we realize that he is the only solution to all of our issues. Amazing that he still helps us even when after he has given us a hand, we turn our back on him and believe, in our foolishness, that we can do anything on our own. We forget who was there for us when times were bad.

May God help me now and may I not forget it after he does!
3SN Tonight. Stoked.

-Kyle Jenkins