Servant heart

I have often been told that I have a servant heart. I know what it means and I know that it's a good thing. I seek out ways to help people, to make their lives easier, look for new areas I can serve in the church, junk like that. I like that kinda stuff. But there is a serious lesson that I have had to learn.

I am taking away from any potential spiritual growth I might have by serving the church instead of the Lord.

I get so focused on helping people, that I don't help myself, or look to God in everything I do. I haven't spent time with God "for no reason" in months. I never just hangout with my bible like I used to. I have seen my attitude and my effectiveness in almost everything I do suffer as a result. I always look to him in my time of need and in my selfish desires.

God works from the inside out, and if I want him to use me, I need to humble myself and find him again. I have been wanting for so long to feel the faith that I felt when I was saved 3 years ago, and yet I find it so hard to take 5 minutes out of my day to get it back.